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Over the past few weeks/months I’ve been worried about my health. I get bad headaches that i’ve been told are migranes, I feel unwell and energy just disappears.

I took some time out and started writing what I ate and when things happened… to find if there is a pattern between what I eat and headaches, or other feelings.

I discovered that what I eat is not good and althou I don’t have loads of junk food – I also do not have a very mixed diet when it comes to food types. I often have different flavourings of things but not the correct or even close to correct portions of types of foods.

I have a low amount of starchy foods in my diet or did until I really realised what they were doing. I’ve always loved vegitables and many meats particularly beef. But often missed the potatoes as thought them as boring and avoided them unless they were chips.

I’ve discovered different ways to cook them from friends suggestions, aswell as TV cook shows, books and the internet. I used to hate rice, unless mixed with a curry but quite like these rice noodles which are just as good.

I was low on energy and still am as not got the balance right yet but cutting down on sweets early in the day is helping overall.

I am having more regular meals – like taking food to work and having meals same time of day each day which seems to help reduce the tiredness and exhaustion I was feeling.

There does seem to be a balance issue. I’ve misunderstood much of what I read on foods previously and currently re-training myself the basics to get back on track.

So don’t think there is anything wrong with me. I just messed up on the things that helped with slow energy release – oops.

Were in a world where we expect things instantly… My energy was the same – a quick fix is a sugar filled drink or chocolate bar whereas some breakfast cerial can be fast but last so much longer.

Last friday the 13th [feb 09] I turned 30, it was a good day and night and I see more and more friends getting closer to that day of their own.

Some this week, others next, more weeks and months ago and future. No one seems to be making a Big deal about it althou its a marker in life.

Since connecting on facebook with so many friends from school time and seeing that they too are turning 30 – so many of us that had lost contact now seeing a little glimpse of each other as we’ve changed and grown – How we now look, the types of job we do and families we’ve made.

So much has changed from the views of the early teens in the early 1990′s – Are we successful, are we still here. Has the world not blown itself up or we killed it off yet.

Are the things we do now changing the future – are we the same people we were then or have we changed, grown, shrunk, lost faith, gained confidence.

I always wanted to make one of those “time capsule” things – bury it in a garden and dig it up in the future to see if what we thought would happen does.

I’ve looked through past journals over the last year as I came across them – Glad I’ve taken up typing as my writing is awful. Often I feel the same things I felt then but the future or now the past as we see it is nothing like what I predicted.

I am glad to say I still have many good friends from that time, still that I keep in contact and many of them turning the mid sized 3-0 this year

But nothing new is flying, there is no peace on earth and people don’t always say the truth but its nice to see that not everywhere is the same and the earth does have so many different ways to do things.

Some say a talent, some say instinct, some say a gift, some say lucky – I say Eerie and great… Often I can sense when someone is watching me/us or something is about to happen in a set area.

I can’t tell you what, just that something and if its a good or bad thing thats about to happen and usually a rough time ahead [No longer than 20 mins so far]

Its happened a lot over the years if I look back and its a strange feeling, an instinct of knowing yet in todays general reality is impossable. It doesn’t always happen – its on occasion not a normality so very hard to measure why it happens.

Am I measuring so many factors around me predicting the likely outcome, processing many actions and posabilities and deciding which is measurably likely to happen and if thats is the case can any future event be predicted?

Is it a fate… I kinda of well… because of this then that will happen and mixed together creates like a kind of pyramid of true and falses until at last you have the true – the future at the end of the calculation. Is it still a prediction if the only posability is one.

One night I remember writing down a calculation that made sense while partially asleep – I can recall it being the meaning of why for all and it made sense, it felt so peaceful seeing there was a plan, a bigger picture than just now.

Next day Upon reading when awoken it made no sense in the logic I understand and believe in – what I’ve been brought to see as truth shaping the reality that I live in.

There are many “Energies” in this world – there is the power of electricity but this is not what I mean when I speak of Energy.

I speak of Energy as the power in the universe – the actions that occur, the movement, beliefs and nature working hand in hand that surrounds us all without the knowledge of many.

There are many ways energy is explained in many religions… Some could say the Holy Spirit [Christian] is a type of energy. And when People pray they focus their energy to God to have something happen.

Gut Feeling?
The knowing of something is this way or that… a Direction – like a prod of direction that tells you that you are correct.

I will speak more on these thoughts over the next few months but at the moment leave it here.